|
|
xsimply_chic
Forget about the dirty looks, the photographs your boyfriend took. You said you read me like a book but the pages are all torn and frayed. I'm okay, I'm okay, I'm okay now.But you really need to listen to me because I'm telling you the truth, I mean this, I'm okay. Trust me.
I'M NOT OKAY
| |
| [ |
userinfo |
| |
livejournal userinfo |
] |
| [ |
calendar |
| |
livejournal calendar |
] |
|
|
|
|
[1. 3. 07 // @ 10 : 05 pm] |
|
I know this is a late new years up date but this year has been amazing.
iv met some of the best friends I could ever think of having
and kept the best friends i could ever think of having
i have had some of the best nights
dancing like a fanny
some of the best days
and some of the best hungover mornings haha
last summer was great with picnics and nights out
iv got a job that i love (even when i complain about it)
i like that i have been so unbelievably stressed
and that looking back on it it was really funny.
i love that iv now realised im a bitch and i dont care
i love being able to bitch with all my friends about...everyone else haha
i love phrases such as,
'sos your face'
'he looks like a pipecleaner'
'mintoid'
'gee aye jo, gee aye elvis'
its amazing having some of the funniest videos that will probably come abck to haunt us haha
all in all,
2006 has had its down points, thats to be expected
but now looking back....
if you have been in my 2006 i just want to say,
'thank you, it has been you that has made my year the best and because of you jammin people
i love my life
xxx
|
|
|
|
[12. 19. 06 // @ 8 : 45 pm] |
|
guess what.........
i love life!!!!
|
|
|
|
[11. 25. 06 // @ 12 : 42 am] |
|
Im taking back my dance dress.
I hate it.
Infact i love it, i hate me in it.
I really dont want to go anymore.
I dont have a dress.
I dont have a date.
there is someone going who i really dont want to see.
and i jsut would rather sit in and watch a film
xx
|
|
|
|
[11. 21. 06 // @ 10 : 07 pm] |
|
i got my report card today. Its alright but it could have been better. Im terrified about english but what can I do?
haha oh well.
Does myspace ever get you a wee bit sad?
It gets me a wee bit sad sometimes, silly isnt it. Just me being all weird and thinking people dont like me....hope they do:s
My dress is beautiful...on a hanger. still not sure about it on.
Help?
Im so happy for someone! And its only because she is happy. which is weird cause its kind of like im happy that shes happy so im happy about the same thing that she is happy about but thats just weird. I guess im happy because i think she deserves it. She did have a pretty crappy convayor belt for a while.
I miss my girls! i know its childish but sak my job i want to go out every weekend to the pub or spend the day shopping like we used to!
I think i might throw a tantrum!
haha
Im int he house alone! parents have been delayed for hours and im in all by myself.
OH well this week i was staying with my aunt who STUFFED me like a pinyatta!
Pot Bellied Pig..i think so!
xxxx
|
|
|
|
[11. 20. 06 // @ 6 : 08 pm] |
|
I got service superstar!!!
haha thats what Dot gets for not liking me!
I think iv passed all my tests and things too! Well havent had english back yet but ill have to resit that anyway.
HAd an alright weekend. Friday was Laurens party, which was good apart from having to look after Laura who got drunk. But in all honestly i am glad it was me and not someone else.
Saturday i was working as normal. Colin was very hungover bless him.
Met Ria at Capitol which was a laugh, had tio get a nice wee rant out. felt better after it haha. Sorry.
COuld of stayed for a nights worth of drinks but had to leave. I really need a night out with the girls Its horrible not being able to sped every saturday with them. Its been 3months now and i still cant get used to it.
Bought my dance dress. Think i look like a pot bellied pig. Enough said.
Dont think i have a date, and wish that he liked me.
but im Happy Happy HAppy.
DOnt care if things go wrong because you kin always find a way to solve them
:)
xxxxxxxx
|
|
|
|
[9. 25. 06 // @ 9 : 27 pm] |
|
honestly, my weekend kind of sucked.
but i cant do anything about it so i wont moan.
hope everyones weekend was jammin and i want to hear all the goss
:)
xx
|
|
|
|
[8. 13. 06 // @ 8 : 26 pm] |
|
this week has been one of the best in my life.
Family.
Results.
Jobs.
Dancing.
Friends.
Men.
all great.
I know, however, that it hasnt been for some people. And its because of some immature children who cant see the result of their actions. And it is rediculous! I just hope that the girl they have hurt realises how special she is and that they arn't worthy of her consideration.
I wish someone had been at the dancing on friday, because i miss her alot.
Today has been weird. I dont feel great and all i want to do is sleep. Plus im in a bad mood with myself and i have no idea why.
Probably because i was reading through vanity fair and wish i could be a model on one of their pages haha, ever heard anything as funny?!
Dont think we are going to L.A. anymore because of the air terror. Which is fair enough.
Hope everyone is well and feeling great
xx
|
|
|
|
[8. 7. 06 // @ 8 : 30 pm] |
|
I'm so worried.
its tomorrow, and i know that iv not done well. I studied so hard, i even got up really early to study. But i hate my nerves. Me composed?! haha no, im just good at hiding the insecure me! But exams bring out the worst in me. Sick. Shaking. Crying. Breathless. Sleepless. im a mess. But this is so much worse, i know these dont really count, but apart from the rest of the school looking down on me, and the girls rubbing it in with their relief - theres the fact that i wont get to complete my highers, then ill have to work on the street but no one will want me because , well lets be honest if your going to have a 'woman of the night' you want her to be stunning! so i cant even win there! And to be honest, i cant even blame my nerves for me being stupid in every sense of the word.
Im so terrified.
my parents are expecting greatness, i mean i know they say its okay if i dont do well, but i can see them really meaning 'Do well, or all our money has gone to waste'. i cant handle that
I want to run away.
i hate myself.
And my dream job, well 'dream' being the key word, what was i thinking?
aaaaaah!
what am i complaining about, people are dying of disease or trapped in war. they would do anything to swap with me. I have no right to complain. Scrap what i just wrote, it can be fixed. Sort of. I hope. I love appeals!
Good luck everyone
xxx
|
|
|
|
[5. 26. 06 // @ 4 : 43 pm] |
|
you know what??
i love life. Yeah its not perfect but im happy and smiling.and the things that arent perfect i kin work on.
Got my dance soon, my body will be toned! Just watch me haha
Had a lovely wee day yesterday with the girls.
Ladys picnic on saturday.
Cant wait
And yeah im optimistic, SO what
love you all
xx
|
|
|
|
[5. 19. 06 // @ 10 : 18 pm] |
|
i cant get my head back down. I knwo the exams arent over, but i just dont want the next two, i cant start studying again.
i cant wait untill they are all over- properly.
the past week has been weird. Views have changed and iv been up and down. Its strange.
I know im being stupid sometimes but i just cant stop thinking it.
anyway, im crashing the concert tomorrow nite.
PLEASE dont hate me
im really looking forward to next thrusday for a few reasons
itll be jammin
xxmexx
|
|
|
|
[5. 1. 06 // @ 4 : 28 pm] |
| [ |
music |
| |
tegan and sara |
] |
i feel weird today,
studied for 5hours-ish
but i feel really lonely
i guess i deserved that
xxmexx
|
|
|
|
[4. 30. 06 // @ 7 : 04 pm] |
|
isnt it funny how things you thought would go badly go well?
or things you thought would go well go badly?
or sometimes there is just a mixture of the two.
But does any of that really matter when your sharing it with the people you love?
the other nite felt wrong and uncharacterist of me.
I didnt really enjoy that part.
liked the rest though
love the person i spent it with though.
overall it was a fantastic weekend.
loved it!
Wished someone other people had came,
they know who they are.
love you
xxmexx
|
|
|
|
[3. 12. 06 // @ 7 : 48 pm] |
|
such a beasting weekend!
in short-
went home from school to sarahs, had ages to get ready a grand change. Went up to Nivs getting SO lovst on the way. Saw sdome people that i havnt seen in ages! loved it!
GRand party except that i was stuck in a toilet for over an hour helping this practically comotosed guy. why is it always me?
then dave and tyler came to get us and we pottered over to see whiteside and fairley. ended up in THE scankyest bar ever, were Sarah and i stood out like sore thumbs being in dresses and all. Got LEFT and STRANDED in a random street. Really ahsd to pee but refused to use a bush. Went to WHitesides then went home.
SAturday-
had a great jammie day sweeping up dust. Got ready, nbad dry skin-was thankfully solved. Away for dinner- an expensive dinner! and then over to Fairleys. was a great party apart frombeing stalked lol. A wee drive and kissing in the snow. Snowed in and crashed at Whitesides. woke up looking dreadful! but its all good.
Such an amazing weekend, did not want it to end!
Joey Negro
parties, pubs and dancing
love you sweetheart! Glad things are back to the right way :D
missed a few certain people
just a shame that i have to feel guilt about not being somewhere
xxxx
|
|
|
[2. 19. 06 // @ 9 : 02 pm] |
|
had such a lovely weekend,
friday i went to see Memoire of a Geisa, which is an amazing film, and then went shop[ping with the mother.
Friday nite was loris house, adn had a nice wee nite in teh a bunch of people. All are really decent people.
Saturday was grand, had an unusual wee sleep in till about 12, and got a nice wee early call from vicky.
Popped on a train and went in to meet her. Saw emma , and had a nice wee chat. Havnt seen her in far too long.
Went to Zara and tried on clothes as usual :D. Vicky looked goreous as always in this strapless polkadot dress, and i tried on a lovely wee black one. Then went for lunch , coffee and a wee baileys. Grand wee chat as always, made me smile. Finnally to finnish the nite went upto the ark, which is obviously not good enough for us anymore, so next weekend its upto biars road...with wee lauren!!(even if i have to drag her)
gran was over for lunch today. I really lvoe her, she just such a genuinly lovely person.
iv got my english prelim tomorrow. Iv studied so much for it but i still dont think im going to pass, and im really worried.
Vicky wants to set me up with Callum. i dont se it happening because he is very handsome!
love
xxmexx
|
|
|
|
[2. 14. 06 // @ 5 : 55 pm] |
Valentines day again.
People who ahve someone love it,
those who dont hate it.
it must be one of the most controvertial days! lol.
My Ventines day consisted of getting 2 valentines cards,
one from my dad and the other from my uncles dog.
I feel so loved.
Shopping with the mother was good. Got a jacket for £5...bargins are the best!
studying again, cant take much more of it though lol.
but all in all my day consisted of no love, or no guy with a rose, telling me how he loved me.
lol, oh well theres always next year.
haha
seeled with love
xxmexx
|
|
|
|
[1. 30. 06 // @ 5 : 36 pm] |
how perfect was todays weather?! It was actually beautiful, although it was cold. But you kin get used to it!
Sorry lol.
Today was alright, nothing that exciting, but it never is...infact thats a lie. lol
HOw can we be made to do an essay on something that we havnt done?! is it just me or does that seem stupid
to you too??
I still cannot shake this exhausted feeling, i feel ill but at teh same time happy and in a mood to dance along with the most random songs. like a min ago when i was dancing to 'I will survive' lol. but i guess thats jsut me.
I really want to go out this weekend. Someone take me out! please.
Hope your exams went okay today, and i hope that you are feeling better, ill give you a wee bell tonite dear!!
Will you please get down off your high horse and just talk to me?!!!!
i was reading things back from ages ago on this....i was SO pathetic. Well more so than i am now lol.
love
me
xxx
|
|
|
|
[12. 7. 05 // @ 4 : 49 pm] |
been a while.
wanting things to go back to the way they were
yeah
dont know what happened. things bitttttt screwed up but that always happens rite?
really really really missing a few people! Hope they know who they are
dont like it when things change!
oh aye n ruths taking me out on half day?! lmao should be good? (if it dont go wrong lol) :D
xxmexx
|
|
|
|
[10. 10. 05 // @ 8 : 48 pm] |
this is for JIL because i love her to pieces and pieces and pieces!!!!!!
shes shamazin and we ALL know it! Dont denie it!! cause its so true!
For Jill!!!
love you hen
xxmexx
|
|
|
|
[9. 19. 05 // @ 6 : 33 pm] |
lol, today i was jsut saying how i <b>never</b> come on this anymore! But i have to get a wee few thingies straight.
Im going to start having my own oppinions and stop just agreeing with everyone. Im not saying 'Oh im going to change' , i always say that and it never ever happens lol. So this time i wont.
I have had time to think things over and get things straight in the head department. I realised who is going to be there for me, and who my true long life friends are. i thinki needed to do that.
Ruth hen!!! <b>WE</b> need to hang out! its a must! Soon aye?? good,glad you agree :P (loving you babes)
love you
xxmexx
|
|
|
|
[8. 19. 05 // @ 10 : 14 pm] |
|
FAte has a Fucking sad way of showing you things. LIke a mistake that goes on to lead to another whole topic? it was like my wee angel going 'Dont you fucking go downt his road again, I cant handle it' I think iv learnt this time. Perhaps not that im ill in the head, but also that i can trust people.
It just shows that you can have faith in people, and trust in them and they will be there for you. Fair enough there are going to be that tiny percentage that seem to let you down all the time, but looking at the majority, They will always be there. I love you. I mean it like totally. People surprise you and rekindle your faith in society. Thank you so much to those people who where there. I owe you a huge one.
Now iv had my bad time , we can go back to normal....basically you guys taking spazzes and not me lol.
people seem to be leaving me! I think i may be cursed. Seems weird i knwo this, but seriously everything points to it. Think about if you know me. HAs anything bad ever happened to you?? Or have you left? Broken hearted? Or anything along those line? im guessing 95% of your answers are a big fat AYE!
Iv noticed this, and its not just my imagination. Im sorry lol.
xxmexx
|
|
|
| navigation |
| [ |
viewing |
| |
most recent entries |
] |
| [ |
go |
| |
earlier |
] |
|
|
|
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
xliloldmex's journal